O-oi, Doumeki, do we have Halloween plans this year? *is probably very red, remembering Halloween last year*

...I'm baking a cake regardless of other plans. Cake is always good, right? Or are cookies better? *indecisive*

I have a new cookbook now. I'm learning to make more elaborate dishes.

I'm enjoying myself. As much as I can, in any case.

Himawari-chan, would you like to come taste them some time? I can't always tell if they're just right.

...I knew it! He did get arrested after we were torn apart.

Ugh, I'm torn between irritated (at him!) and worried. I mean, he's in jail, but that nonchalant call was just so kjdgfdshldjf! It's like he didn't care.

I care.

Current Mood: worried

I don't know what to do. I...I just, I don't, didn't, have relationships. i have no idea what to feel, or do, or say, or...I don't really get it.

I don't know what I'm doing. It scares me.

And, it's, well, I mean, it's Doumeki. I thought I hated him. And then...strongly disliked? Tolerated? and now...this...I just don't know myself anymore.

I'm so confused. Help me, somebody? Demyx? [flops on couch in defeat]

Tags: doumeki, life, wtf

Things will be very busy with work...also, where's Doumeki gone off to?

He hasn't been around to bother me. Weird. I kind of miss it.

Don't expect me around too much. Sorry, everyone.

I've been home sick. I slept most of the day today. And then I woke up to that horrible news story. Who the hell risks the lives of children?! I'm really glad none of them were hurt, but this is...I hate stuff like this. I hate selfish thoughtless behavior when it endangers others. I don't have all the words to put my feeling into, but I'm really upset. I might have to have a cry now.

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I'm still alive.

I don't know if any of you worried, but I haven't died.

I just forget about this journal. And I have so little time!

It still is pretty lonely at my house Even though Doumeki drops in all by his annoying self without asking!. I really ought to get a pet or something, although i worry I won't be able to take care of it when I'm really busy.

(I have a brief an unexpected bit of free time at school right now, so, yeah...)

Current Location: school

It's my birthday. I almost never celebrate it anymore. There's no real point, one kind of outgrows it, and even if I hadn't, I don't have any parents to care, and no one else really. Except Doumeki, but he doesn't count so shut up, whoever you are, insinuating stupid things.

It's the anniversary of their death. My parents, I mean. I guess maybe I'm used to it now, but I miss them less and less. They're fading; I'm having trouble remembering the way my mother used to laugh, and the way father smiled, and the things they've said to me, the words I promised myself I'd treasure forever. Even worse, sometimes I just don't really care that they're gone, which is even more depressing.

I wish they'd never crashed at all. It was my own stupid fault too. And how did I survive just fine?

On a related note, I hate trains.

Happy birthday me.

(Don't ask what I'm doing up at this hour. Stupid insane professors.)

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: -april fools; rufus wainwright-

I spent twice as much as I usually do on groceries today. All because of that bottomless pit of a human who keeps demanding food from me!

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Life goes on, I suppose. Mine is, anyway. Everything is so...uneventful, since that time.

That was disgusting.

I went to that stupid Christmas party that Demyx was talking about a couple weeks ago (by the way, the reason I haven't been around is simply because I've been forgetting and not caring). But regardless, I went to the party hoping to meet other people who live in this town who ARE NOT DOUMEKI.

AND IT BACKFIRED.

I hate the Christmas season. I hope whoever thought up the mistletoe tradition is burning in the deepest depth of hell right now.

DISGUSTING.

Tags: christmas is stupid, doumeki!, hate, mistletoe is the bane of my existence
Current Music: pavlov's bell [aimee mann]

GYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M THIS STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!

I fail. And he's right. I'm such an idiot.

I hate him. I hate him. Gah, I hate him so much. WHY?! Why'd I invite him to work? What was I thinking?!

Obviously I wasn't. I hate this.

Excuse me while I go bang my head against a wall and kick something.

Tags: doumeki
Current Mood: irate
Current Music: the con :: tegan and sara:.

Oh shit, here comes Doumeki. Posting from LJTalk.

Homework sucks. Work sucks. Doumeki sucks (in the way that does NOT involve sex of any kind). Life kinda sucks too.

I need a pet or something...

Tags: doumeki
Current Mood: aggravated

Ohh, I have so much homework. Thirty pages of chemistry reading, some problems, a short paper to write about French culture and the importance of food. And I have to invent a recipe for a small snack that can be made in 15 minutes.

I've been experimenting with dips and crackers. What kinds things do you guys like in dips? I really don't know.

I wish I knew how to get a hold of Himawari-chan, but I haven't seen her since graduation. Aahhh, I'm dying without a glimpse of Himawari-chan's adorable smiling face...! Just one look at it and I feel like I can do anything! Unlike that damn Doumeki from my calculus class! Just looking at his stupid expressionless face brings me down! ARGH! And it's so annoying how he thinks he knows everything when he doesn't! Jerk!

Maybe I'll have to use Doumeki as a victim test subject. Except he's so damn useless at giving me feedback. How the hell am I supposed to know what 'hn' means?!

Hm, I wonder how Kohane-chan has been...?

Eurgh, on top of all that schoolwork, I also have that job of mine. Why does the manager think it's acceptable to pile all the overtime on me to make up for his failure to staff the restaurant properly?! I always have a headache from the musicians he hires. Doesn't he know music is dangerous?!

Tags: himawari-chan, homework, school, work
Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: I Know I Know I Know {Tegan & Sara}